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I naturally drew towards necromancy from Thailand and Cambodia, frequently practised by renegade Buddhist monks, as my darkness had unintentionally been aroused. However, magic did not make things better for me. I was over myself because it appeared as though an alien will was in charge. I had spent more than 30 years working hard and making sacrifices to run towards myself, unlike others who had done the opposite. What it had come to? It appeared as though I had left my cell and was now standing in the jail yard. It's an escape, technically. Practically, it is still a prison. I still didn't have anything that even vaguely resembled a life because I was unaware that a hybrid entity like myself was never designed to have a "life." It resembles an existence more.

At that time, I yelled out in my head to anyone could have been listening in as I was dining in a Cantonese restaurant in Eastern Chinatown of New York City. I said that I felt completely let down by the "light side" of spirituality because, despite working incredibly hard for so long and accomplishing a lot in terms of the journey I was on, I had done so little in terms of getting the outcomes I had been hoping for. Although I was very certain that "karma" existed, it didn't appear to apply to me. My life was almost intolerable.

With everything I had done, I kept thinking that I must be useful to someone. I must be unique and valuable because the majority of individuals did not choose a path similar to mine. I must have a position in the universe. Since "good" had gotten me nothing and, judging by the circumstances, "good" didn't even want me on their team, I was at that point receptive to what humans would label as "the dark side," or evil.

The important thing is that evil must align with the will of the Almighty Father just as good does, in order to facilitate balance throughout creation. Of course, some people may think a moment like the one I'm describing is a moment of weakness, but they fail to realise that evil has just as much of a place in the universe as does good. If you are truly a person of darkness, then this is a time of surrender. Read more.